I met with the doctor on Friday. It was a long, tough appointment, but I think I feel confident and much better after it.
I'm still digesting all of the crazy shit that is about to happen, namely IVF.
The truth is I never thought it would get this far. When I was blissfully pregnant at 29 on my second try, I was on top of the world. I did everything right, and I was never more happy. The universe took that baby from me, and it took my tube. I'm lucky I made it at all. I know other women haven't been so lucky.
I never thought it would get this far. I thought it might take a little longer. I thought it might take some drugs. I never thought I would be going to my tenth visit with an international infertility expert that I only got into via a code from a friend of a friend. And I never thought I'd have my life planned to January. All the way to January to do what comes so easy to everyone else.