Wednesday, December 3, 2014

Fear of the 6

My beta was 6.  I was very confused by the nurse.  I'm supposed to keep taking my estrogen patches and progesterone, even though the nurse said we just have to keep watching for it to drop to zero.  And I guess the worst period I've ever had means nothing?  WTF???

But my thoughts immediately went to waking up in the recovery room.  Wouldn't it just be a swell Christmas present if I could both fail at IVF AND blow my other tube at the same time!  Still a couple weeks for 2014 to punch me in the face a few times.  And now I'm so scared I'm going to pass out on the kitchen floor alone and bleed out.

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  1. The beta roller coaster sucks, I'm so sorry.

    As for the other tube, wouldn't that not have to be a worry since you did IVF?

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    1. Ectopic is rare, but IVF increases the risk, and previous ectopic REALLY increases your risk. So maybe I hit the jackpot.

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    2. I had no idea of that. I truly thought with IVF, they are implanting the embryo directly into your uterus, so how could it make it back to the tube?

      Gosh I hope that's not the case for you. Good luck and we're all following along and wishing you the best.

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    3. If they could implant embryos, that would be awesome! IVF just gets the embryo into the uterus, then if the embryo is feeling like it, it implants wherever it wants. I'm also really surprised that there's a higher risk of ectopic with IVF, it seems like it would be swimming against the tide to get to the wrong spot.

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  2. I don't understand the Beta thing, sorry. POAS is as technical as I get.
    You are obviously not doing ok, quite understandably, and you have some time to go for your grief, but I just want you to know I'm thinking of you.

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    1. I don't either. Maybe if I had I never would have ended up in this situation in the first place.

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  3. This DOES suck. Waiting for it to hit zero is an awful kind of torture.

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  4. I'm so sorry that it's turned out this way. Sending much love your way. I'm hoping and praying that you'll soon reach zero, with zero damage to your other tube! Hugs.xx

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