This last WTF appointment contained a caveat about genetics. The doctor thinks we should get the embryos tested at CCRM. At the time, that seemed like a big blow, so I just left and went to the beach. Rented a house, went to some friends, drank myself silly. Just left for two weeks, and worked on the beach. Took my birth control pills. Last call, right?
And then while I was gone, it got worse. I guess I tested positive for lupus antibodies? Lupus.
My initial Googlings about lupus FREAKED.ME.OUT. Miscarriages second trimester. Miscarriages. High risk pregnancy.
And then I kept reading. No way to diagnose. So complex. So many drugs. I give up. I quit reading about lupus. I quit reading about genetic testing. I'm totally overwhelmed. Maybe it's my lupus.
So now I have another doctor appointment. Maybe a lot more doctors. Welcome to the RPL club.