Wednesday, April 13, 2016

Choked Up

A little over a year ago, we rolled up the same clinic, the same dildo cam, and there was no heartbeat. We were both silent. I was thinking logistics of how I was going to take Cytotec again, because I am supposed to be on a plane on Thursday.

Tech asked the standard questions about prenatals or if I needed the info sheets. We were dismissive and silent, she knew we had seen some shit.

She started the scan and was very silent. Done that before. I was sitting in silence, waiting for her to get the doctor, she still didn't say anything. Then, without warning, she hit a switch, and there was heartbeat! THERE WAS A HEARTBEAT!

I felt it in my throat and I started to choke up. I didn't even hear what else she said. Something about the rate of the heartbeat being excellent, measurements perfect, a perfect seven week scan. Maybe fifth time is a charm.

9 comments:

  1. I wanted to tell you last post that I was in a very similar situation with my daughter but, I figured what would it help to give you one more piece of information to obsess over?

    And here you are. Baby has a heartbeat and I'm along for your new journey.

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  2. FUCK YES. FUCK FUCK FUCK YES. Grow baby grow! Like Jessica above, I am in this for the long haul. AHHHH. FUCK YES. Best news ever!

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  3. I was thinking about you today too. I'm so thrilled for the good news. I have crossed everything I can! <3

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  4. I have been thinking about you all day. I have tears in my eyes! So so happy for you!

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  5. YES YES YES! Amazing news! I am thrilled for you. I know all too well what it feels like to lay on that table expecting the worse because it's all you've ever known. I'm thrilled for you guys and will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers as this pregnancy progresses!

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  6. Hope all is going well. Would love an update! Lots of prayers that this one sticks!

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  7. Hope all is well. We're all out here thinking of you.

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